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Monday, January 16th, 2006
9:59 am	so I don't use this or really xanga either...myspace.com/submerged_in_God it's just because that's what everyone uses now a days...later (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
2:51 pm	Currently Listening Live Unplugged By Jeremy Camp see related well, I've not updated much lately, but I guess that was obvious....so yeah, here we go. Everything has been going....yeah it's been going. More or less good, I've had a few semi-rough  days, gone through a couple minor things, but I got through them. I've kept my focus on Christ, and I am growing more everyday! The more time I spend with Him, especially when there isn't some bug emotional pull to spend time with Him, the more complete that I feel. It is amazing to truly live everyday, pursuing God's presence in your life, walking with God, learning and growing spiritually. It is truly amazing, to walk in peace, and to walk in joy, and to walk in that freedom that God gave to us...realizing we don't have to fight anymore. Realizing that God already won the victory and all we have to do is receive it, and walk in it! walking in peace and joy is never the same thing as being happy, or in a good mood....but it is about overcoming that bad mood and going after God anyway! I'm going to Germany the day after Christmas! I am So very much excited!! I think I know what I'm going to talk about in whatever session thing I'm doing, and I'm really excited about it. I'm not really sure if I'm doing anything on the worship team or not, but it isn't a huge deal if I'm not. God will put who He wants where He wants them, if I'm not on the worship team, then AWESOME, cuz I'm still gonna be used in the drama's and in I'm sure other incredible ways! So my family is going to Pensacola for thanksgiving, and my dad is praching the revival service at Larry Martin's church that Friday (the day after thanksgiving) that is gonna be a lot of fun!! So if you live in Pensacola, I'm expecting to see you there! No Excuses! Work at the rising sun, has been going well, yay. I've not been fired!! Youth has been going really well too, I'm still playing the keyboard in youth, though I'm not sure why God has me there, I know there are several people who could play much better than me, but I'm the one He put there, so I will do the best I can, thank You Jesus...God's going to move get excited all my brooksvillians, God is going to move! I'm really wanting a good accoustic guitar, since I'm currently lacking, I haven't really written much music since the owner of my old one, finally took it back...I think I've written one song. But who knows, it might be more because God is teaching me and growing me before He allows me to write more music, than not having an accoustic guitar. Alright Tiana, I updated....was this good enough for you? alright cool Later (Comment on this)
Monday, October 3rd, 2005
11:32 am	Currently Listening Great River Road By Jason Upton see related The storm of a clouded mind grows, ever consuming. The misconceptions of desire become ever more attractive, warped perspective seems right. "There is a way that seems right to man, but ends in destruction."                                                                                           ~Proverbs 16:25 ...and you grow tired, the sun passes again, you have no desire to move forward. Sometimes looking back at where you came from, seeing so clearly what you used to have, it can seem more attractive than what lies beyond the clouds. Going back looks more attractive with each passing moment....You can't SEE beyond the clouds, and you turn back to what you can see. If only you had pressed on...because just beyond the clouds, is a future so bright.... You must press forward to what God has prepared for you, beyond this darkness, is a light that will never fade. Forget the promises of yesterday. Trust in what God is doing today, it is new. It is a challenge, it is different than yesterday, and that means leaving the past behind, and not going back. It means holding yourself to a higher standard It gets hard. You don't want to hold yourself to a higher standard. You want to just be the regular Christian, not looked upon as an extreme. You want to enjoy the same music, the same movies as all else, but to go back now... even though it is what you want, would hinder you in the grand scheme of it all....so you must choose, be the norm, or hold yourself to the standards you set when you could feel God so near....do you remember that day? When it was just you and God? So beautiful, just you and Him, such joy, such peace. You had all the answers that day, all was clear, all was simple. You knew that you had to hold yourself to a higher standard, you knew you could do it. You no longer feel that certainty, you long to just let go, and stop pressing on, you long to just lose conciousness and slip so effortlessly back into the patterns God brought you out of, it would be so easy, but you must hold yourself to those standards. God will honor that, and it will be so worth it. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding"                                                                                                ~Proverbs 3:5 Ok, this has been over looked by many, you read it, and you get it, but it doesn't sink in. You all understand what that means, but YOU DON'T GET IT!! I know this, because every single one of you still try to figure it out on your own. You have your situations, and you spend hours sitting trying to figure out what to do, hours just dwelling on it, trying to make sense of it all. YOU WILL NEVER FIGURE IT OUT, and IT MIGHT NEVER MAKE SENSE! You can't depend on your understanding, because your understanding is warped, you understand only what you see, your point of view, and it is a shortsighted view of a situation, you don't see the full picture, the long term effects. You just see what effects your emotions NOW....that is why we MUST trust God....He will guide us through the situation in a way that might hurt now, but will secure us the future He has promised. "You need not be afraid of disaster or the destruction that comes upon the wicked, for the Lord is your security. He will keep your feet from being caught in a trap.                                ~Proverbs 3:25-26 Well, the first thing I notice, is though you are saved, there are still many traps that the enemy has set before you. But this is about security in God. It is God's will for you to receive complete security in Him, and Him alone. Especially in the teenage years, this is where it is most important to be secure in God and no one else. This is also the time when it is so easy to become distracted, by the things of this world. It is so easy, to get side tracked and place your security in man, specifically in relationships, that can vanish in an instant. Before you can pursue a lasting relationship, you must be completely SECURE in God, meaning you don't "need a relationship", You need God! You can't let anything give you security other than God, whatever it might be. He alone has the foresight to help you avoid the traps the enemy has set, but you must be secure in Him. ....I should probably mention, that becomming secure in God is one of the hardest things to do...It often means that everything else you find security in, will be stripped away. One year ago tommorow, I arrived here in sunny Florida! w-00--That rocks! Happy day! And with that my dear friends, I am tired. Good night, and God bless                                            ~Christopher (Comment on this)
Friday, September 16th, 2005
8:39 pm	Currently Listening Smell the Color 9 By Chris Rice see related You know, tearing down the things I care about is hard... I mean, when some one close to me, who I thought was one of my best friends, tells me I am self-righteous, closed minded, and a plethera of other things....it tends to hurt. and I am hurt, I am upset. but I am not emotional. I have conquered those emotions, they do not control me, are they there, yeah, do I acknowledge them yeah....amd I going to let them rule me and cause me to wallow around in my angst, no. These emotions will not bring me down, I am not a slave to my emotions.... all praise be to God. For His opinion is the only one that matters, is it closed minded to dismiss what someone says, because you know the Bible says differently? To believe the truth might be consdered closed minded, fine. But am I going to stop believing the truth in it's entirety, because someone disagrees one small part of it? No. No one can deter my belief in the truth, and this just about proves that. I just wish that person wasn't mad at me for this....that is what upsets me, not that they think me these things, just that they are mad about them....it is kind of confuing when someone close to you,suddenly tells you what they really think of you, makes you question why they befriended you at all....I'm not mad at them, why would I be? I don't understand why anyone is upset in this situation...and I don't need to. I know what's going on, I see the deceived, I see the deceit, that is spreading, it breaks my heart at some of the people who have fallen victim....I AM SICK AND TIRED OF A PASSIONLESS GENERATION! Let's just fit in, not stir up trouble, whoa God forbid we offend the world with our love for God....note that was SARCASM! Anyway, God has been doing a lot in my life, showing me a lot, I will probably share some of it on here soon, but right now, I just need to go clear my head.... I love you through Christ                                        ~Chris P.S. what has me upset more than anything else, is seein someone I care about, deciding to become a middle of the road Christian...maybe they aren't backsliding....but I would almost rather them slide away completely than to sit doing nothing in the middle of the road.......and I am completely helpless to stop them. You know, it stinks when you truly have to just surrender the situation to God, and praying is all you can do, but it's life. So I rejoice that God is in control. (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 11th, 2005
7:11 pm	Currently Listening The Eleventh Hour By Jars of Clay see related the true essence of selfishness... look at us, when we sin, when something happens to us, when our emotions are tearing us a part, looks at us, sitting around, thoughts slashing between the weight of our circumstances, and asking God for freedom.....specifically when we sin, don't sit around beating yourself up, wondering how you could of let that happen! Ask God for forgivness, and move on. You won't feel any better about what you did, but don't keep dwelling on it! That is the true essence of selfishness, you are robbing yourself of what God wants to do for you, by dwelling on yourself, and how you let God down, stop asking for a freedom that is already yours. And stop rejecting that freedom by continuing to dwell. Anyway, I am really stinking tired. I went to rock the universe last night, with Relient K, Skillet, and Pillar, man it was flipping AWESOME! But I didn't get home til 1:30, and 12:30 the night before cuz of work. So I stayed home from church tonight, and I am dog tired man. It's funny how when your emotions are intensified, hehe. What I like to do is when I'm tired, write down the things that are bothering me, the things I'm upset about, and going back to them LATER, when I'm not tired. If there is any logic to them THEN (meaning they aren't stupid things to be upset about) once I am rested, THEN I will address the issues. Seems to work better for me, and I get into less arguments I like that. I fell asleep during worship this morning, let's keep that to ourselves eh? But once pastor stared preaching, well in a strange turn of events I was more awake as he went on that I was when he started. He was preaching good today buddy! I'm watching ladder 49, It isn't the greatest movie, but it is holding my interest, so it's better than most....well holding my interest to the point where I am updatin xanga while watching it Keep the passion guys!                                           ~Christopher~ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
11:09 pm	Currently Listening Lifesong By Casting Crowns see related It's funny how time just slips on by you...one blink and an entire month has past since you've done something solid. Anyway onto my life. Today was flipping awesome. I had one of the greatest times with God this afternoon, one of the best ever, such peace, I even fell asleep afterwards. It was nice, and service was pretty good tonight. I enjoyed worship, though at times I wanted to be on the floor crying out to God instead of behind the keys, but that is just a different type of worship. I learned a lot about passion today, and about where it comes from. If your passion for God, comes from an emotional hype, then it will vanish, could be sudden, could be snuffed out over time, but it will surely vanish. but if you passion comes from the knowledge, that God is with you, that God has a purpose for your life, if you passion comes out of an overflow of love for God, then it CAN BE A LASTING PASSION! You don't have to light up for a week ,then try to fight to get it back only to have another week of passion. NO, you can stay passionate, you can stay close to God. Stop praying and spending time with Him only when it feels good. I've learned that during the dry times, where you don't feel God, that is when He is making you stronger. It is easy to spend time with Him when emotion is running high, if it was like that all the time then serving God wouldn't be a challenge, and it would become just another thing, grow tiresome. But it is during the times when we don't feel Him that He is shaping us, making is stronger. So don't lose heart because you can't feel Him anymore, rejoice that He trusts you enough to withdraw from you, to give you this time of growth. He won't stay away for long, just keep seeking Him, before ANYTHING else... it gets harder when you are pursuing other things, just as much, or more than God. God's will often conflicts with yours, so what you want will cause your mind to battle what God wants. Don't battle, let what you want fade away, and give into what God wants, just spend time with God, get lost in the simplicity of His love that He offers so freely. When your thoughts get consumed with conflict, and you find yourself questioning rather or not something should be done....that time of questioning is your mind trying to rationalize sin, STOP. Do not keep tring to figure out if it is okay to do or not. If you have to question (rationalize) then it is NOT OKAY! Finally, beware the dangers of backsliding. The dangers of tasting God's presence, and then falling back into sin...I don't think I could sum it up as good as God himself sums it up in 2 Peter 2:20-21 "and when people escape from the wicked ways of the world by learning about our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and then get tangled up in sin and become its slave again, they are worst off than before. It would be better if they had never known the right way to live than to know it and then reject the hold commandments that were given to them." and with that my lovely peops I bid thee good night! and a good one you might have! Love you all through Christ!                                                ~Christoher~ (Comment on this)
Monday, August 15th, 2005
10:56 pm	Just some stuff that I wrote . . . Just some stuff that I wrote . . . hope you can relate to it? God Bless. Falling inside without saying a word. Silence consumes, yet all you want is to be heard. I won't be denied, I won't let this moment pass you by. Strength fades from your mind, listen to me now, you don't have to fall behind. Stop depending on yourself, God is a source of strength, He didn't call you to fail. Stay strong. He won't give you more than you can bear, and yes He sees your precious tears, falling through the years. He sees how you long to forget, long to pretend as if you are a child again, but pain is how you grow, being stressed and taking whatever life may throw. I will stand by you, and you will make it through, but remember that there is nothing I can do, but point you in the direction, show you the proof, that God is the one and only truth. Trust in Him, place your faith in Him. Let His grace refresh your mind again. Rest this night, don't try to fight this battle, for God has already claimed the victory. --- Entangled in a web of self, longing to break these memories off the shelf, shake loose the scales from my eyes, and stand in awe of You, divine. You're precious words cut through the grime, and I am seeing clearly for the first time, the weight has been removed from my mind. The story concludes this very night, the end drifts farther out of sight, but which ending am I chasing . . . ? Is this history in the making? Destined by God, or am I faking, fooling, mistaking, myself for more than I am? Filled with false dreams, and tainted I cans. Tell me what is as it seems. Can a God so mysterious really have a plan for me? Can I trust in what I can't see? I am merely a blind slave, trusting my loving Master to lead me to that place, the place of peace that He has ordained specifically for me. To trust in the unseen, seems like a foolish mans way, but could this be what it means to walk by faith? (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 13th, 2005
9:11 pm	Currently Listening The Fires of Life By Cool Hand Luke see related Wow, you get through one thing, and something else comes up to invade your thoughts. Life is funny that way. Sometimes I find myself inventing things to worry about . . .but this is not one of those times. I am so relieved to be done with school .  .  . Praise the Lord. Even though this happened, I can still praise the Lord. Regardless of circumstances, God still deserves our praises. . . Anyway on the way home from Busch Gardens, I found a Bible and started reading it, it was really cool, I read the book of James. . . . MAN there is some awesome stuff in there, I think everyone should read it . . .twice . . . there is SO much in there. One thing I found interesting was the scripture in James 4:8, "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you, was your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts." I thought it was interesting, because, the other day I randomly started singing a song and the words were. "Give us clean hands, give us pure hearts, let us not lift our soul to another." I just thought it was cool. Well, I am tired and I've got church in the morning. WOO HOO! So I guess I won't exsasperate you guys with a super long entry again. Sorry for not leaving comments lately, I'll start again soon , I promise Later (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 9th, 2005
10:06 am	Drama. People. Stupid. Currently Listening Two Lefts Don't Make a Right... But Three Do By Relient K see related Drama. People. Stupid. They are all the same thing Hello everyone, I don't update nearly as much as I used too . . . good thing or a bad thing? What do YOU people think? oh well, let's see what have I been up to? Church on Sunday, lots of spanish and math. I got to help Brandy out with her math yesterday, that was fun. It was nice doing math that I KNOW how to do, lol. I probably won't update much this week, I have a whole lot of school to do in a very short time, but then I am done. like really done, that is a weird thought. Man, there is always so much going on, I rarely talk about most of it on here....why start now. I've been thinking a lot lately, about perspective. How is it possible for one person to see something as good, and another see the same thing as bad? Who is right? So often we see these things in our lives as HUGE, but the reality is they aren't that big, but our perspective tells us differently. We see it as huge even though it isn't, our perspective is blurred. Anyway I gotta get back to my school, I will update when I get the chance . . . whenever that might be . . . . until then . . . later (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 5th, 2005
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Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005
11:37 am	Well, tons going on, lots to say, just not sure where to start. God is so good to me........man.  I sure don't deserve it. I upset my dad tonight, we were watching a movie, and I took a phone call instead of watching it....that was a mistake I should of just said I couldn't talk, and watched the movie. Sorry about that....... Well, I guess I'll just start with some notes from my prayer time... My mind is a road that leads to nowhere. When I follow its numerous paths, it leads to disarray. It leaves me stranded, feeling helpless. There is only one way to peace, and that is shutting up my mind, ignoring the voices in my head, and turning my ear to Heaven. Embracing the words God said, in this book. So delicately written, each page meant for me, each word divinely meant for a specific time, a specific season. God Yours is the voice I desire, Your is the love thst keeps the fire, Only You keep me safe, I throw down all else and praise Your name. All the negative feelings, the guilt, the regret, they are YOU and YOUR FLESH, not God. Those feelings of "I shouldn't of done that, I can't believe it" and beating yourself up, ARE NOT FROM GOD! Repent and it is over, God's frogiven you. So leave those negative feelings in God's presence, and DON'T pick them back up. God brings PEACE and JOY not GRIEF....... well, this is an excerpt from that book again, it is so good. "If you stayed home when God told you to go because you were concerned about your own people there, then you actually robbed them of the teaching of Jesus Christ Himself. When you obeyed and left all consequences to God, the Lord went into your city to teach, but as long as you were disobedient, you blocked His way. Watch where you begin to debate with Him and put what you call your duty into competition with His commands... ...Are we playing the part of an amateur providence, trying to play God's role in the lives of others? Are we so noisy in our instruction of other people that God cannot get near them? We must learn to keep our mouths shut, and our spirits alert!" WOW!! How many times are we guilty of trying to FORCE our ways and opinions on other people? instead of just letting God have His way and reach them HIMSELF, how many times have WE messed up His will by OPENING our mouths? just something to think about....... Excerpts from Proverbs 1:22-33 "You simpletons!" she(wisdom) cries. "How long will you go on being simple-minded? How long will you mockers relish in your mocking? How long will you fools fight the facts? I called you so often, but you didn't come. You ignore my advice and rejected the correction I offered. So I will laugh whrn you are in trouble. I will not answer when they cry for help. Even though they anxiously search for me, they will not find me. For they hated knowledge and chose not to fear the Lord. They rejected my advice and paid no attention when I corected them. That is why they must eat the bitter fruit of livng their own way. They must experience the full terror of the path they have chosen. For they are simpletons who turn away from me-to death. They are fools, and their own complacency will destroy them. But all who listen to me will live in peace and safety, unafraid of harm." Whoa, you better listen to wisdom and correction NOW, cuz if you choose to ignore it, then you won't be able to find it when you need it. I'm learning that a large part of life, is simply learning how to overcome our sinful desires, how to conquer them and choose God's path over the path of our evil natures. Colossians 2:23 These rules may seem wise because they require strong devotion, humility, and severe bodily discipline. But they have NO effect when it comes to conquering a person's evil thoughts and desires. So often we do things, that require a lot of discipline and it is hard......but if it doesn't help to conquer your evil thoughts and desires, then what good does it do? just something to think about I'm off to bed 1ST CORINTHIANS 13:4-8 ~Chris (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 30th, 2005
10:30 pm	The past few weeks have been rough, but today was a good day. Spent some time with God, but I'll get to that later. Brandy and I went to my Dad's game today, sadly the other team didn't show up AND it started raining, lol. So needless to say they didn't play the game, but we came back to my house and hung out for a while. I'm really excited about church tommorowit is going to be so awesome. My dad is teaching in life hour, so that is going to be awesome, I know he has something awesome to say, It's going to be so great! Wow, I just had a rather upsetting phone call, I'm frankly really confused by the reaction of the person involved. This person said something about my sister, and I calmly, yet sternly corrected the statment. Well now this person is mad at me, apparently, because I'm being immature by not even considering that my sister is what she was saying. This person says they meant it out of concern, and I believe them, but they didn't present it in concern, and I wish they could see that, instead of being mad at me. Lord, help me to understand the reaction of this person...and most of all use this situation to give You glory. Anyway, God's been showing me a lot today, had some awesome time with Him, gotta spend some more now to get the weight of that phone call off of me, but yes..here is an excerpt from a book that I've been reading "It is not true to say that God wants to teach us something in our trials. Through every cloud He brings our way, He wants to unteach something. His purpose in using the cloud is to simplify our beliefs until our relationship with Him is exactly like that of a child..." Too many times we as humans try to complicate every situation in our life...Even our relationship with God, it isn't a complicated thing. God love us, we love Him. Simple. We communicate with Him through prayer...there isn't some condition to His love, He isn't gonna love us as long as we obey Him, He loves us regardless, and once we start returning that love, and loving Him, something amazing happens. WE WANT TO OBEY HIM, it isn't something we are forced to do!! When we truly love God there aren't a lot of rules and restrctions, we just want to please God, and want to have high standards... another except "If I can stay calm, faithful, and unconfused i nthe middle of the turmoil of life, the goal of the purpose of God is being accomplished in me. Ya know, a lot of times we are looking star gazed off into the future wondering what God has planned for us. But that shouldn't be the center of our focus, what is God's purpose for me NOW...yes God has a destination for us, a destiny, but our destination is not His purpose, His purpose is for NOW. now go re read that last excerpt Something that has been on my mind lately, well I've been accused of this I guess....Do I come accross as looking down on those "less holy" than me?! Because I don't. I just want to go after God, and not compromise my standards. Other people's standards are OTHER people's standards, I've never told anyone..."OH DON'T DO THAT around me you will corrupt me." heck I've never even told someone that they shouldn't do something. If it isn't your conviction, why shouldn't you do it? They tell me I'm judgmental because someone has lower standards to me....but I'm not. I know some of the rankest sinners and I don't even condemn them! They have the choice to come to God or not....whoever has been saying that I am judmental over those with lower standards than me, needs to say it to my face, and stop judging me! Ephesians 4:26-27 and "don't sin by letting anger gain control over you." (it doesn't say don't be angry, it says don't let it control you, or cause you to sin) Don't let the sun go down while you are still angry, for anger gives a mighty foothold to the Devil Yeah, when you are mad at someone, don't let the sun go down without rectrifying the situation, get rid of your anger, because the enemy will work in that anger, and mess with your mind. Trust me our minds are messed up enough without the enemy working in our anger.... Ephesians 4:29-32 Don't use foul or abusive language. Let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them. and do not bring sorrow to God's Holy Spirit by the way you live. Remember, He is the one who identified you as his own, guaranteeing that you will be saved on the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of malicious behavior. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you. So true, God forgave US for everything we've done to Him, all the times we've turned our back, and betrayed Him. Every word we've ever spoken against Him, He forgives us. So why can't we forgive each other? Why do we have anger against each other? Why are we so quick to be upset with our brothers and sisters in Christ? Why do we have to say things to offend, why can't we just encourage each other, and pick each other up when we are down. I'm sick of Christians tearing each other a part. Why do you have to attack in your anger. Just give it to God and continue to love them. Father, help me to apply all of this into my life, Lord I need to work to raise my standards in every area I have let slip. I need to work on controlling my anger, and the words I speak, don't let me speak bad about, or to people. Lord, use me to speak encouragment and blessings into the lives of my brethern. Lord I am tired of being controlled by my emotions, rather they be good or bad, I lay them down. I want to be controlled by You, and Your words, not by what I feel. Feelings come, and feelings pass, but You remain forever, You never change. Your love will always be here, it is constant, it is something I can depend on, and I thank You for that. To the readers, yeah this was long, deal with it and comment, I enjoy getting comments, we all do love you all through Christ Later (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
8:51 am	Ya know what guys, I don't care what circumstances are in your lfe. I don't care how hard it is, I don't care how much it hurts. Stop thinking with your feelings. Stop acting on your emotions. Go, spend time with God, and allow Him to give you HIS perspective. I can't promise you will 'feel' better, but life isn't about a feeling. I can promise that you will think clearer, and make better decisions, decisions based on God's word, NOT what you feel...... God doesn't see pain the same way we do, God allows us to make our own choices, our own mistakes, that cause us pain, and He allows that pain....with some of us, we become callous to His presence, used to it, take it for granted, until we feel pain and NEED His comfort....because we live for what makes us feel good, we are taught to avoid what is going to cause us pain....we need to STOP living for what feels good, and start living for WHAT GETS US CLOSER TO GOD! Night ---------------------- Well, if you still haven't gone to the links below, you can hear my song "Lost In You" from my low quality album, recorded on windows sound recorder, "Reflections of Innocence", at this link. purevolume.com/aloneinworship If you want to hear a song from my bump CD please go to myspace.com/aloneinworship If you wish to visit my new my space, since I wiped all my old friends, lol please go to myspace.com/submerged_in_God thank you, later (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 24th, 2005
2:46 pm	Well, if you still haven't gone to the links below, you can hear my song "Lost In You" from my low quality album, recorded on windows sound recorder, "Reflections of Innocence", at this link. purevolume.com/aloneinworship If you want to hear a song from my bump CD please go to myspace.com/aloneinworship If you wish to visit my new my space, since I wiped all my old friends, lol please go to myspace.com/submerged_in_God thank you, later (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 19th, 2005
12:27 pm	It's been a hard few days, please guys keep me in your prayers, I need it. The following is the notes from my prayer time today, I don't generally post them on here, but I feel like I should so.... Stop thinking, turn your emotions off, and just know God never leaves you alone, He is always with you, even when you "feel" empty and alone, God is there...you feel angry and condemned, God is there...don't take on the responsibility and the weight of the blame of your sin...Jesus died to relieve you of that burden... I love You Jesus, never let me take Your sacrifice for granted. You are amazing! There is nothing miraculous about what you can explain...people will always look to explain God, but if we understood Him, we would cease being amazed by Him. look guys, I don't care what you feel, I don't care if you are happy, or if you feel like you are alone in this world, as if you are the only one who cares about you, I don't care if you've been stabbed in the back by everyone you know, I don't care how big the situations in your life are, I don't care how painful they are....GOD Is WITH YOU! You might not feel Him, you might feel stupid trying to pray and not being able to feel anything....but He is here for you..... there is so much God wants to do in our lives, so much He desires to show us, but because we fail to crucify our flesh to the cross, because we fail to completely submit everything we are to Christ He is incapable of completing that work inside of us. Lord You are beautiful.... selected parts of Galations 5:17-24 And the Spirit gives us desires that are opposite from what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other, and your choices are never free from this conflict. When you follow the desires of your sinful nature, your lives will produce these evil results: sexual immorality, impure thoughts, eagerness for lusting pleasure, idolatry, participation in demonic activity, hostility, quarelling, jealousy, outbursts of anger, selfish ambitions, divisions, the feeling that everyone is wrong except those in your own little group, envy, drunkenness, wild parties, and other kinds of sin. anyone living that sort of life will not inherit the Kingdom of God. But when the Holy Spirit controls our lives, He will produce this kind of fruit in us: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have nailed the passions and desires of their sinful nature to His cross and crucifed them there.... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
9:25 am	xanga yeah, I am really going to only use live journal now with selected entries, I'll still use my xanga and my private xangaeven more, so yeah I guess I'll see you guys around there, cuz xanga > live journal BYE (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 25th, 2005
1:36 pm	Take a moment and pray for people who feel like they've failed Hey, will everyone please take a moment and say a prayer for everyone who feels like they've failed, everyone who feels like they can't make it, everyone who has people speaking curses into their lives. Take a moment and pray for them. Thanks (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
12:14 pm	Well, I have spanish in about 20 minutes and figured I should write a quick update! and everyone celebrates! Well, I'm playing keyboard for youth tonight, that should be a lot of fun, I'm nore sure why they are letting me play keyboard, but I guess they needed someone, and I do have a basic knowledge, I believe, I wish I truly knew what I was doing though I don't know, I feel like I should be a little nervous, but I'm not....weird Anyway, I think that there are truly some people out there who are serious about God, they are just hiding in their church bubble. This is true, but I can see a few who are about to bust out! So yay for them!! well it's been 3 minutes and I have spanish in 17, so I'm gonna go later (Comment on this)
Monday, June 20th, 2005
7:32 am	*On a side note, you should all go to xanga! and create accounts there!! or at least read MY XANGA! Well, Friday I went to see Batman Begins again, it was really good again. Saturday I chilled at home all day, and church on Sunday was really good. Pastor preached an excellent message. I too have been annoyed by the comment blah on xanga. I'm trying ot patient though, they'll get it fixed eventually. I don't have anything to say, but thought I'd update anyway I will say that I'm tired of wasting time, and if I knew how to do all the things I need to do, then I would put a stop to it, but I stand utterly clueless....... later (Comment on this)
Friday, June 17th, 2005
10:15 am	*On a side note, you should all go to xanga! and create accounts there!! or at least read MY XANGA! Often I feel overwhelmed with the feeling that I truly can't do the things I have to do. From school, the the hard choices in life, it can truly be hard. but God makes things simple.....His perspective anyway, but if you are never in His presence, how will you ever learn his perspective? I went to see Batman Begins last night with Brandy, I gotta say it was a good movie, I was very suprised, it wasn't cheesy, it was very down to earth, I enjoyed it! I'm listening to switchfoot right now, I gotta say GOOD music, I'm listening to a mix of all 4 albums, and am really excited about their new album coming out later this year called "nothing is sound" you are all going to get it Well I wrote a song last nigth, it's got a really moody sound, but I'm interested in hearing what you people think about it lyrically...I don't know, I've been struggling with lyrics lately, been weird... Disillusioned By Chris Lewis  Falling apart once again Foolishness as my defense Reality is so far Like my dreams, it seems so hard Separated from myself Is this real or an illusion I've lost touch, I can't fight back And I'm falling I'm falling into Your arms I want to go to sleep Disappear inside my dreams Feel the weight of my defeat Slip into Your next heartbeat Separated from myself Is this real or an illusion I've lost touch, I can't fight back And I'm falling I'm falling into Your arms Inside my dream Is this real or an illusion And the feeling if pain Is this real or an illusion Separated from myself Is this real or an illusion I've lost touch, I can't fight back And I'm falling I'm falling into Your arms Lord, let my worship to You Be real not an illusion ©2005 Prodigy Records. All rights reserved. (Comment on this)